i can see that nothings changed at all...

im just in a bad mood. i dont know why. i went home for the weekend and wasted my time there, so i really dont feel like i had a weekend at all, i feel like i just went from friday afternoon to sunday night without a moment to relax. home was ok i guess though. didnt see any utha utha duhs and that kinda sucked, the promise of a good time was definitely a lie. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me. well maybe i do, but i wouldnt know how to say it. i would kill for spring break to be tommorrow, even though im probably just going to sit around on my ass because i have the gayest spring break timewise of anyone i know. ive got to find something to do when i get home from school. i come home and do my homework, workout, and then i go to bed. my life sucks ass. moving off campus was a mistake i think, only because i really dont see anyone, ever. most of my friends are now just acqaintances. i have a very strict set of rules for friendship and one of the biggest ones is that we both make an effort to see each other on an often enough basis, and realistically i dont make an effort to see anyone anymore. i dont even care. i usually just sit here. and if someone does manage to call me i usually dont even answer. so its really my fault. just to make a bad situation worse my truck is no longer at lipscomb and i have to drive my dads explorer for a little while, which isnt so bad but i hate driving this freaking car. i also hate real estate people coming to my apartment on a daily basis. sometimes i just want to take a nap in the afternoon without someone giving me a business card and asking me if its alright if they look around the house. no its not alright, wipe your damn feet and shut the door on your way out please. i got some new shoes today, that was exciting. and tommorrow if i can find some that i like i will probably get some new khakis and maybe a few dress shirts, but no tshirts. my mom had a little bit of a fit when she saw the ungodly amount of t's i had to wash while i was home. i will be funny again...someday. i just dont do anything anymore, so the highlights of my week would be something like i drove to school and made it back just to drive there again tomoro. thats not really worth writing, or talking about even. i just want something more than ordinary. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me, im just in a bad mood, thats all.